Hello honeybees,

I had a very interesting dream last night. All day yesterday I was researching my family (Vietnamese side) and found out some very strange things- especially when speaking to my Uncle.

Usually I have several dreams in one sleep and one of them had my Grandmother in it  and the other had a White Tiger in it.

A little background history on this- my Grandmother is a devout Buddhist and sometimes comes across a martyr in her teachings. She prays heavily and is always cooking up some strange medicines, using exotic Vietnamese herbs and spices. She’s a superstitious woman with heavy secrets and gets most of her advice from a psychic back in Vietnam. Any heavy spiritual work usually is laid on the monks in the temples and she uses Confucianism practices which include praying, offering food/drink and making wishes to our ancestors. I remember- when I used to speak to her- that there would never be a day where she wouldn’t be praying or doing religious things, researching obsessively on goodness-knows-what on her laptop.

Back to the dream I had… there was a White Tiger sitting in the corner of a concrete room. It’s fur was ruffled and it had blood around it’s mouth. In it’s mouth it was chewing on really long bloody veins that tangled up around it’s paws. The White Tiger roared at me- a cry for help? I think it was telling me to come back. It didn’t want to hurt me, and even if it did it couldn’t do much being tangled in it’s own bloody veiny mess.

The room it was in was quite dark and ominous. Behind me was an open door leading to the outside. I felt stressed being in this room, I didn’t want to go near this White Tiger and I didn’t bother feeling any remorse to it’s distressing cries. I knew I had to leave, so I turned to the door and left- then I woke up.

Now here’s the reason why I think this White Tiger relates somewhat to my Grandmother…

• In the Chinese Zodiac, she is a Tiger.
• White is a symbol of spirituality and purity- my Grandmother practices heavily on things to do with her spirituality.
• A long, long time ago, I believe she may have been the hands to my Mum’s brother’s death. He ‘smacked his head and died of a brain bleed when he jumped off the radiator playing superman’. Why would my grandparents be in court battling the custody of my Mum for 5 years if they had nothing to do with this death? What kind of evidence must of the police had to have had against my parents for my Mum to have been taken away and put into an orphanage for so long?
• My uncle told me something very interesting too. In our culture, it is believed that if a family member tarnishes the bloodline by killing another family member, the next generation will suffer for this terrible sin. Could this be why my Mum is so f’ed up? Additionally, the White Tiger was chewing on veins that it caught itself tangled up in and couldn’t leave the room. I relate veins as something to do with ‘bloodline’.
• This dream radiated heavily of my Grandmother’s energy.

My take on the dream….

The White Tiger (my grandmother), although white being a symbol of spiritual purity, has it’s fur tarnished by blood. It was tangled up in veins (the bloodline of our family). I felt stressed and left, even though the tiger tried calling out to me, I didn’t listen. I felt like it should deal with it’s own mess that it created for itself. (I blocked my Grandmother about a year ago… I was tired of her lies and abuse.) I left the tiger towards a better place. (Like I left her and my mother to a better life.) 

Interestingly the White Tiger as a spirit animal represents- Seeker of Personal Truth and Power of Conviction. This really relates to what I was doing yesterday which was seeking the truth about my family yesterday and why they are so messed up.

So this is my take on the dream, if anyone else would like to have their input, please don’t hesitate to comment!

Many blessings and lots of love,
HoneyedRose
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